Producer diary: Death waits in Samarra

All my tracks have an intention, but i guess this is one of the most intentional.
It references the infamous "death waits in samarra" tale which you can read about here: https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/117849-death-speaks-there-was-a-merchant-in-bagdad-who-sent

In this story, death is inevitable, no matter how fast you run. Scary!
Yet i never interpreted it as being about... actual death or dying.
It's more like: no one can escape their fate.

There is a point where you have reached "the end of the line" in your life, and you do not know what comes next in your life, and you might be scared, because everyone is scared of change. Especially if it is profound change, change coming from the depths.

I wrote this track in 2021, at a weird time in my life. I felt like I had reached the point that I mentioned above.
The lockdown had changed everything, old friends had disappeared, my old therapist decided to quit... well, at all points in my life, formerly solid structures in my life were falling apart, and i was suspended in midair...

I had no idea what would come next, or if i would lose m7ind, or if things get better, or worse, or maybe all three of these would happen.

But i decided to stop running, and accept it, whatever might crawl up from the depth, come through the door, smash through the window.

Producing the track was my way of saying "i am ready. I surrender. I am not in control. It's over, and it's okay".

Let the next chapter roll in.

And, to my own surprise, it worked. My old life fell apart and a new one begun, on every level of existence for me.
It was not always easy, far from it.

But it was also super ecstatic and exciting.
My life went to places i never knew before, metaphorically speaking.

And, who knows...
Maybe fate has one or two nice surprises in store ... for you, too?